Last Update: 11/1/2020 0018
2. There Will Be Revenge (2:42)
3. For Fiona (2:41)
4. Check For A Pulse (2:36)
5. Divine Let Down (1:41)
6. Black Box (2:50)
7. Bullets (2:27)
8. Failing Is Easier (0:41)
9. Apparition (3:18)
10. It's Tragic (3:24)
11. Killing Time (2:59)
12. Slowly Fading Fast (3:10)
13. Overdue (3:14)
01 PART TWO
(3:35)I hope that I can seem flawless to you
And always take away the pain that you'll go through
My impression, not always what it seems
You're more of a reflection of what I used to be
So why do I feel hollow when I look at your photograph
You take down my fortress and kill me with a smile
Please hold that thought a while
I'll try to put you on this path
I hope you find the road I couldn't see
You won't be by yourself
I'll live for your problems and think of you when I'm gone
Don't worry now it won't be long
Once I was you I thought the world was safe
A new perspective, everybody is insane
Protecting you is a paranoid excuse
I know that you'll do better than I could ever do
And thoughts of self destruction
Are now all buried in the past
You take down my barricade and melt away my heart
If loving hurts so much I want this pain to always last
I hope you pass the test that I have failed
You won't be by yourself
I'll live for your problems and think of you when I'm gone
Don't worry now it won't be long
I apologize to you for the words not spoken yet
Don't want you to look back and live in regret
Some day you'll ask me why I was away
02 THERE WILL BE REVENGE
(2:42)Staring out the window, she sees glimpses of last night
And everyone is silent, but speaking through their eyes
Walking to the bus stop where the court of judges wait
To sentence her to live her life like she should always be ashamed
Been around so many times it wears out what you are
Accepting sarcasm and false sincerity
As words that people mean
Rejection redefined by giving up just what they're after
Someone would tell you if they could speak above all this laughter
Think you would learn somehow, the time just isn't now
Got a reputation now and no one's holding back
Wearing scars on your sleeve and exposed to their attack
All her friends have pulled the plug on respect and reserve
Behind your back they prey on weakness
It's not what you deserve
Shot down, humiliated, pummeled by their words
Devoted, you lay down with misplaced loyalty
It's misery you seek
No longer called by name when everybody's got your number
When dignity is gone that's when depression drags you under
To depths you didn't know beneath and under
No longer called by name when everybody's got your number
When dignity is gone that's when depression drags you under
To depths you didn't know beneath the undertow
03 FOR FIONA
(2:41)I can't even think of words to match the way I'm feeling
I don't even think a book
could say enough for you
I can only try my best, to put it in a song I guess
You try to speak, I know you tell the truth
If I could freeze our small amount of time together
Then we could make believe this world would never end
Unfortunately truth is cold
So you stay young while I get old
But always know, I'm your best friend
Nothing is the same
Everything is a better change
Sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do
And I'm as scared as anybody who has done this
I wouldn't give it up for nothing free
You took my life, turned it around
And put my feet back on the ground
I owe you, eternally
Nothing is the same
Everything is a better change
Sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do
I'm always, I'm always
I'm always here
I'm always, I'm always
I'm always here
Nothing is the same
Everything is a better change
Sometimes I see silence in your eyes
Let it all crash down
When it ends it begins with you
I'm gonna learn every time you do
04 CHECK FOR A PULSE
(2:36)Fall into nowhere, fading out
Afraid of who we are, get used to it somehow
Like sad and distant memories
Time is something that we never can replace
A long and fucked up road, so everyone's at home
Where it's dysfunctional and safe
You can hide inside your kingdom where the guards refuse to change
Without noticing the doubt in people these days
Faces tell the story of a broken heart
Together we fall apart
Is anyone alive in here
Acceptance has become a common state of mind
We love stupidity, it doesn't hurt as much
It's worse to feel than be out of touch
This is failure through conforming, paranoia is a trend
As life hangs in the balance of the weak minded
Free prescriptions of placebo for us all
We only stand if it's safe to fall
You can hide inside your kingdom where the guards refuse to change
Without noticing the doubt in people these days
Faces tell the story of a broken heart
Together we fall apart
05 DIVINE LET DOWN
(1:41)It's funny how blind faith often is used
Like a net to fall on in desperate times
Like a crutch for regret as a last resort
I won't let emotions take me
And rely on this fence that's fallen on my head
Guilt is an entity of its own fall from grace
And self worth is their reminder
To feel out of place in your own home
Another excuse to divide us and keep the siege at bay
As long as thoughts are suppressed we'll think the same
06 BLACK BOX
(2:50)Up here sedated in my seat
Can't wait until I can see my feet
And run away from stupid things I've said
I'll be here a few days from now
We'll talk about it when I come down
If we make it this time, I'll clean the stain I've bled
Our worlds collide in new beginnings
It's an emergency permission to bail out
So when the heart crash lands
What memories will survive
I thank my black box that I'm alive
I feel unlucky today, can't wash the panic off my face
Didn't learn a thing from the last time
It's so selfish to be so confused
Heart beats like rapid fire
So close to the edge but far away in mind
Two days to go until I see you
Looks like we can call off the ambulance down there
My head is touching down, and I've learned to be afraid
I thank my black box that you're the same
Our worlds collide in new beginnings
It's an emergency permission to bail out
So when the heart crash lands
What memories will survive
I thank my black box that I'm alive
07 BULLETS
(2:27)Alone on stage without a song
So where is Jesus now, and where do I belong
Well what is faith if there is no proof
The answer is the same
But not for anyone, the question lingers on
So out of desperation, humans do their worst
To find out what that is
A mystery known to many as the divine
It's their dime
If what they wrote is what he said, to equally forgive
We read the whole thing wrong
And guidance should be used like a tool
When it gets handed down
It tends to get so damn confusing for a fool
And every word they preach is only opinion
That's why our love divides itself into a thousand pieces
Like bullets shot in vain, without sight
09 APPARITION
(3:18)I'm sick of everything, I can't get out of bed
Just lay here, someone pull me out
I'm tired of these thoughts, the world moves outside
Feel like a ghost, rejected by the living
Everybody is so impressed with the things they say
I take a look at what a joke it is and then lock myself away
Come on ego you fool
I see your apparition in the doorway, beckoning me
Promising to be there when the planet lets me down
You'll still be around
Unconscious and awake, miscounting all the sheep
Too late for a peaceful night of sleep
A nightmare comes and goes, I can't remember it
It's sinking, the holes are filling my ship
Everybody is laughing at the man out on the bow
I'm learning now that nothing in common is better than finding out
Come on ego you fool
I see your apparition in the doorway, beckoning me
Promising to be there when the planet lets me down
You'll still be around
Come on ego you fool
I see your apparition in the doorway, beckoning me
Promising to be there when the planet lets me down
You'll still be around
I'm sick of everything, I can't get out of bed
Just lay here like I'm dead
10 IT'S TRAGIC
(3:24)Tragedy pulls us together, but anything tears us apart
Trying hard to stay complacent, but all the systems fail
And fear denies the truth that's in your heart
Forgetting lessons I have learned
My mouth is shut the table's turned
No one giving, time is winning again
I can't shift the blame forever
Some is yours and some is mine
Sick of searching for a solution, we'll always disagree
If the other half is too afraid to fight
I'm losing the will to believe
They're marching as if they were free
How could millions be so stupid
And it's tragic everywhere I go
This country is not what you know
No one giving, fear is winning again
Strength beyond our souls not enough to save us
Way beyond control we are all defenseless
Strength beyond our souls not enough to save us
Way beyond control we are all defenseless
Strength beyond our souls not enough to save us
Way beyond control we are all defenseless
Strength beyond our souls not enough to save us
Way beyond control we are all defenseless
Strength beyond our souls not enough to save us
Way beyond control we are all defenseless
Strength beyond our souls not enough to save us
Way beyond control we are all defenseless
11 KILLING TIME
(2:59)Not knowing what he had got into
Only following the sheep
The message sent for his deployment at only twenty-three
Promised to be there for a short time
His mother looks at photos passed
Down from a family tradition
Her head lies on her lap
I'll never be sure exactly what it means
To serve and protect us from enemies
They make sure we're scared
To justify this ugly, bloody mess
It's less than your pride, it's suicide at best
The waiting fills her with delusion and memories gone by
How could I give life to my baby and then let him go die
But with this joke administration, where no one is exempt
It's not your fault and never will be
Don't hold love in contempt
I feel like I'm lost, drowning out at sea
Surrounded by space with no regard for sympathy
She sees the parade of victory and war that wasn't won
I'm not coming home, he's my only son
If an angel earns its wings every time somebody dies
Then todays the angels black out the blue sky
12 SLOWLY FADING FAST
(3:10)Everyday is passing quickly like a bullet train
And time is not impressed with your complaints
Try moving faster just to get ahead of everyone
Your misconceived beliefs are killing you faster than anyone
It's been so long,
I can't remember
Getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams too late, the easier it seems
But the truth, we are slowly fading fast
Simple minds are hard to please
When denying the fact, your life is not a test
You have to let it go before you get it back
It's been so long,
I can't remember
Getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams too late, the easier it seems
But the truth, we are slowly fading fast
I don't recall any time that you did it by yourself
I look at a photograph of you
And everyone that you take is a fake
And if this ride is so long
Then I just haven't seen the proof
The picture isn't you
The picture isn't you
It's been so long, I can't remember
Getting kicked around like that
If we all follow our dreams too late, the easier it seems
But the truth, we are slowly fading fast
13 OVERDUE
(3:14)The flowers have wilted on the sill
And words have been kept so small and still
And yet if the great opinion speaks
Then sadly we nod our heads and agree
Barely a mention of your name
On deaf ears a distant whisper
Whatever, no one gets it
It's already overdue
You will not be heard by many now
But I'll always be amazed
By every sound your ever made
While building a tolerance to them
You made sorrow sound like a good friend
The well where the poison pen was drawn
The same place you trusted then but was gone
Enemies battled in your minds
Until all the bloodshed leaked down
Dried up and rusted the fight
It's already overdue
You will not be heard by many now
But I'll always be amazed
By every sound you ever made
And since I did not know you
I can only say but a few words
Too bad they won't hear your song
That I've been singing all along