Last Update: 11/1/2020 0018
What's your name
Fuck you, that's my name
I couldn't understand why you left me standing here
Flickering out like a candle in the wind
The memories are laced with shame, there's no intention
Of working out the
problems that remain the same
Little children standing in the hall
Never taught them anything at all
And if you were young again, would you do it different?
Or make your way just trying to find
The fiction in the fact of life
Try to believe the words that you said to me are true
But something else assures me I'm not through
Been denied so many times or so I'm told to
Sit back and ignore the truth,
enjoy the ride, yeah
Never took a hand with her to school
Take a guess then tell us who's the fool
And you're not supposed to be my responsibility
One day you'll regain your pride
And realize life is too short not to try
Does anybody care
Does anybody
Does anybody care
This conversation sickens me
Please let me out, I'll take the bus
And though I try to understand, I didn't know
How can you say that I'm a fool when all I do is help
Well I guess I'm a fool but I know that I'm not your pawn
That feeling is dead and gone
Pretend you're invincible
And no one can save you from yourself
Pretend you're a super hero, a fucking zero
Trying to save the world
Please don't remind me of the past
It's much too late to work it out
And though I see the positive, I hear the doubt
So go and hide your life away, these words are obsolete
And I'm crazy to think that you'll wake up and come around
The silence is made with sound
Pretend you're invincible
There's no one to tell you that it's wrong
They're all just as scared as I am
It's over someday, soon it won't be long
Invincible
He doesn't know what's wrong
It's been this way for much too long
And nothing could be easier
Than blaming this on her
Kicking in the womb
She brings it up, he leaves the room
Walk away all he has to say
You got what you deserve
It's your fault I don't think that it's even mine
And I guess there's not much in his little mind
It's a shame, when it happens everyday
He doesn't stop to think
That every bottle that he drinks
Is just an additive to ignorance, hence problems that exist
Lay down on the bed and dream of glory days instead
Not egocentric attitudes solved problems with a fist
I don't understand why he can get so mad
She don't want it either, but it's too late dad
It's not right and I doubt next time you'll think twice
Pretend that they're lovers but she feels like a slave
How could he even know
She's sinking to the bottom and he can't feel her pain
Too late cause the seeds were sown, go
Growing down instead of up where you belong
Always weak when you're requested to be strong
It's a shame, when it happens everyday
You're growing down
You're growing down
Only been inside of her
Cause when you are inside, you're still actually outside, aren't ya
Then you can say when you're outside you're inside cause you're always inside your head
I'll see you on the outside
And we'll never be the same
After all that's happened what is it that we've gained
Well I've made mistakes before
And never lived them down
After all you've done for me I'm bound
(Don't say another word)
To see you on the outside
Where we can both be sane
(You're speaking for yourself) I'm
I'm bleeding on the inside
A place you might have been
But now I know I'll (never be the same)
Well I heard you got a place
And it's far away from here
Reality has sunken in now confirming all my fears
I'm not gonna track you down
But it's too late to stop
Thinking 'bout the time that we have lost
(I'm happy without you)
I'm trying to forget you
And everything we had (We didn't stand a chance)
We're miserable and it's true
I haven't learned a thing
But now I know I'll trust no one else
(There was a time when we were back and forth, it wasn't easy)
I guess that we're back where we belong
One thing is for sure, it wasn't strong
I'll see you on the outside where we can both feel shame
(You've never been more right)
I'm dying on the inside
You're never coming back
And now I know whatever we go through
My heart is stuck with you
(My heart is stuck with you)
Lost yourself it didn't take much time
It wasn't hard to find
Now that you've been to the edge
Stood and looked down from the top
And found it wasn't worth the pain
A selfish way to say
I'm the only one that counts
And happiness is out
Really insecure, disguising what's inside
You're not cool to me
I won't wait in the back of the line
No one knows exactly where you went
The money has been spent
Sent the search team, I'm about to call it off
Feel you close when you're so far away
A straw inside your vein
As it sucks the life from you, I watch it all come true
When it happens like a million times before
I won't close my mind but I refuse to open the door
Feel the world caving in
You had so much left to give
Is it worth the tide you turned
All the people that you burned
So long to your little friend
This is how the story ends
I'm the only one cause nobody cared anyway
Hate yourself just like I thought you would
It didn't do us good
I'm afraid of being right
So before we say goodbye to you
Come down from off your throne
And let the truth be known
We all know you're not insane
It's how you play this game
Really insecure, disguising what's inside
You're not cool to me when the game is a fake suicide
When the game is a fake suicide
When the game is a fake suicide
Father works the late shift
Mother drinks herself to sleep
Brother's outside fielding with a match and gasoline
They told her lies and gave her no hope for tomorrow
And all the fairy tales just fade away
The brightest day of all the one that she's been needing
Turns to gray
The boyfriend calls her crazy
Teacher bores us all to sleep
And friends are in the bathroom speaking just like enemies, yeah
Nobody understands her heart that's left there bleeding
The dirty secret living in her mind
They'll always tell you that you lit the fire you're feeding left behind
Always there to make you think that you're no good
There's nothing wrong with what you've done
They just wanna lift you up and throw you down
And make you stop when all you wanna do is run
Nobody understands the shame that you've been feeling
The dirty secret living in her heart
It must be hard to put the pieces back together
Torn apart
Don't take it so hard, we're not against you
It's really not that bad
It's just that they want you to think that it is
I'm over the past but I can't defend you
So I'll say it one last time (Say it one last time)
Before I leave that life behind
It's easy to abuse the friends that end up screwed
Just take one for the team, I hope you're happy
It's hard to believe that once there was something
Yhere's something to be said
For sinking the ship that I wanted to sail
You don't have a clue, you never can
And never will
But I'll suck it up and lie, with all my dignity and pride
These words can't say it all
You're feeling ten feet tall
And stronger everyday
I've learned to walk
I've learned to walk away
So easy to confuse another lie that's true
You'll find out for yourself
I hope you're happy
Covered up your insecurities with everything
Showing everyone exactly how you think
Made no difference, I can see right through your best disguise
You look like someone else
It doesn't matter where you hide
You wanna empty clips on everyone around
And burn their fortress to the ground
Socializing makes you sick from drinking everything
And if looks could kill, we'd surely all be dead
Maybe sticks of dynamite would solve your problems now
Underneath my feet
Was it something that I said
You wanna empty clips on everyone around
And burn their fortress to the
And burn their fortress to the ground
Someday soon you'll have your way
And everyone will leave you all alone
You laugh at everyone's mistakes
Trapped inside a mind you call home
You wanna empty clips on everyone around
And burn their fortress to the ground
To the ground
Sitting in the lazy chair, the channels look the same
I realize that the roof is stable and start to feel ashamed
It's cold outside but dont ask me, the weather's fine in here
Ask the man around the corner who lives his life in fear
Two hundred pennies, forty ounces later he's okay
He doesn't have the pressure to think about the next day
But I bet it's something cold and hard and grey
Complaining and whining all the time, I never seem to quit
Always lying to myself, a shoe that always fits
Never is a long time and it seems like I'm a clock
Ticking like a time bomb, someday soon his life will stop
I listen to the radio but nothing good is on
By friends are calling up but I'm pretending that I'm gone
We're all pieces in a chess game, he's a pawn
I wonder how it turned out like this, he don't seem to care
The scale has tipped me fortunate, is this what we call fair
But I've never had the mind to know it, never had the guts to show it
I know one thing, his dream is my nightmare
It's a Thursday morning, four a.m.
And you won't let me go
When tomorrow comes I guess I'll never know
Even in the darkest hour it's the brightest time of day
Even when I go to bed I'm still awake
Eyes held up with toothpicks and my jaw is going off
I will never leave you or admit that I was wrong
There's so many things I'd like to say
I'm foaming at the mouth
Maybe I could write, my pen is hollowed out
I've got ideas and inventions and I'd use them if I could
Stop waking up the next day when they're all no good
Please don't say another word, I know your story well
Conversations take two but I'm talking, talking to myself
Now I need an alibi
And everything I did was true
But every word I said was just a lie
I read the morning paper, someone had just died
In big bold letters so it comes as no surprise
Im looking at a story 'bout violence
A word from a lawyer in his defense
This time we got the jury by the throat
I turn the television on to get away
A quick reminder that we have to swallow every word they say
learned another lesson in history
Written like a murder and mystery
To me it's just another way of disguising the past
Fear is not the way to make it work and be as one
It's too late the damage has been done
So fly your flag and make your statments, hold on to your pride
And live your life for others that have died
This is the end of what we know, where do we go
Don't look for solace in some shallow ignorant late night talk show
Think about your problems every now and then
Discover that you're limited in the end
Sometimes you've got to close your eyes
Start thinking for yourself
By lonely prison walls I heard a young girl calling
Michael, they have taken you away
For you stole Trevelyn's corn
So the young might see the morn
Now a prison ship lies waiting in the bay
Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free bird fly
Our love was on the wings, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry
By lonely prison walls I heard a young man calling
Nothing matters, Mary, when you're free
Against the famine and the Crown
I rebelled they cut me down
Now you must raise our child with dignity
Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free bird fly
Our love was on the wings, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry
By lonely harbour walls she watched the last star falling
As that prison ship sailed out against the sky
For she'll live in hope and pray
For her love in Botany Bay
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry
Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free bird fly
Our love was on the wings, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry
Low lie the fields of Athenry
Where once we watched the small free bird fly
Our love was on the wings, we had dreams and songs to sing
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry
It's so lonely round the fields of Athenry