Last Update: 11/1/2020 0018
2. Better Days (2:24)
3. Solitaire (2:53)
4. Never Good Enough (2:18)
5. Gear Box (3:31)
6. Monster (2:21)
7. Bring Out Your Dead (2:51)
8. Rottin' Apple (2:28)
9. Radio Suicide (2:13)
10. Somnombulance (2:23)
11. Six Feet (1:45)
12. Speed Ball (2:02)
13. Wrong Side Of The Tracks (2:40)
01 FIRECRACKER
(2:52)The other day I swear to God I got a letter in the mail
That said register with us or you're gonna go to jail
You'll be put inside a cage, then forced to enlist
Well I laughed out loud, said I won't comply
To be labeled as one of those who qualify
To be shipped off to fight some fucking wars
Cause war's not about a policy or religion, it's about economy
And I'm not dying to set your country free
I'll never bow to your expectations, I never have I never will
I'm not a puppet, pawn, or figurehead, I'm a man of my own free will
Our freedoms are slowly surrendered as they take more than their fill
How much power is ever enough for the men, the men on Capitol Hill
They're cutting back on welfare, illegalizing homelessness
Am I the only one to see there's something wrong with this
I don't have the answers, won't pretend to say I will
But to put my trust in government, I think, yeah I think I'd rather kill
Oh, mighty word democracy spells freedom for you and me
The books have all been written, and the prophets denied
Little by little watch this state begin to fall
As we awaken from this dream and find ourselves nailed to the wall
Oh firecracker, patriotic lie
You were burning bright the day the country died
In all your glory, in all your pride
Light the way torch of Liberty
Light the sky for the whole world to see
In all your glory, in all your pride
02 BETTER DAYS
(2:24)Some days I'm up, and some days I'm down
Some days I don't give a fuck about anything
Cause yesterday I gave everything, now I want something back
I wanna end it all, I wanna save the world
I wanna take what was never mine
I wanna shout it all out to the world, I wanna keep it all inside
Here I am, I'm just looking for better days
The kind that never seem to come my way
So here I am, I'm just looking for better days
The kind that never seem to come, just when you need em most
I remember a time, not too long ago
When all my day's would only start in one shade of black when
All the thoughts that dragged through my head seemed to wash away the sun
Always a dollar short and one split second out of time
Exiled in a memory, tonight I'll drink, I'll drink myself to sleep
I'm just part of all the madness here I know
When anything I say or do won't ever ever change a thing
The words have all been spoken and intentions smoked away
I find myself in the same old shit, the same old shit again
Maybe today it won't be the same
Maybe I'll just stand my ground
Maybe another time another place
I'll float myself right out of here
Under the influence of reality
Some days I drive myself insane, some days I'm all I've got
Some days I'm tired of seeing the world take everything I've got
It's hard to get it right when doing wrong is all you know
I'll take my chance when tomorrow comes with a little luck I'll grow
03 SOLITAIRE
(2:53)I hurt myself again today
I feel a little numb I could use the pain
I always find myself in this little bind
It's been a few weeks since you've been around
So here I sit with my hands strapped down
Patiently awaiting our secret games we used to play alone
So here I sit all tied up all alone with all my thoughts
I do not mind if this goes on
I think about about what I'll say to you
When you finally decide to come my way
I'm sitting around all painted like a fool
And I don't know how I got this way
And I don't know how much more I wanna take
I know you'll shoot me down and bury me before I get too high
So here I sit all tied up all alone with my thoughts
When will I learn to walk away
From the things I do that make me feel
The way I feel when I'm with you
Tonight it's me, myself and I
Solitaire
All this pain I seem to put myself through
All the ways I find to submit to you
Cat o' nine tails gettin old
And I don't know how I got this way
And I don't know how much more I wanna take
A million ways to tame myself and a million nights to try
So here I sit all tied up all alone with my thoughts
When will I learn to walk away
From the things I do that make me feel
The way I feel when I'm with you
Tonight it's me, myself and I
When will you come around, do the things you do to me
I hate this game of solitaire
Solitaire, solitaire
Solitaire
04 NEVER GOOD ENOUGH
(2:18)She's a big girl and she knows just what she wants
She's gonna get her shit together, and get out of Hollywood
Daddy's little angel won't be comin home tonight
When your nowhere to be found I'll know you've givin up the fight
She can't hold her own she says she's gotta run away from here
The city's gotten the best of her just one too many times
When everything's been said and done and the dust has finally cleared
I'll be your fool just one more time I'll be waitin by the phone
Cause I don't now, and I don't care
I'll do anything you want, never good enough for you
Well she don't need nobody anyway
That's cause no one understands her
She's somewhere in outer space
Knock knockin at my head again, this time you won't get in
She's in orbit now and I'm underground just waitin by the phone
I don't now, and I don't care
I'll do anything you want, never good enough for you
Everything she wants is everything she sees
There's a riddle in her eyes, sometimes I try to figure it out
She's got a mountain of toys reaching to the sky doesn't keep her high
The needle and the spoon, the bottle and the pills are gonna make you feel alright
Cause I don't know, and I don't care
I'll do anything you want, never good enough for you
05 GEAR BOX
(3:31)I remember you used to pray for me
Now you turn your head away
Expectations that I never met
Forgotten promises you never kept
I know someday that there'll be a time
When you can look me in the eye
Now I write these words just to keep it clear
In a jaded song you won't ever hear
I never wanted your forgiveness
You did what you had to then I did what I could
And now we've gone our separate ways
I never found comfort in your acceptance
If time is a healer then I'll sit and wait
For your poison words to scar
A notebook filled with a million words
Sits quietly by my side
Like a loaded gun with the wrong intentions
They tell me life is pain
I forgot a long time ago
But everyday I'm reminded of the way
You put me down, the way you put me out
The way you torched my fucking world
I never wanted your forgiveness
You did what you had to then I did what I could
And now we've gone our separate ways
I never found comfort in your acceptance
If time is a healer then I'll sit and wait
For your poison words to scar
Don't need your lies don't need your promises
Don't want your open arms don't need your sacred ways
And all I need is all I am today
What was once belief has now turned to grief
And there aint nothing more that you could say
Look to myself for everything I need
Aint lookin back on anything
So you think you got me all figured out
And you think you know what this hate is all about
Don't try to understand, don't try to comprehend
The answer's in my words
When the world comes crashing down all around
And I need a quiet place to hide
You'll find me deep inside my head
Under a tree of thought in a world of pain
I never wanted your help, I never needed your help
So when you think of me try to understand
Guide me through your maze of lies
Guide me through your narrow world
I forgot a long time ago
Now every day I'm reminded of the way
You put me down, the way you put me out
The way you torched my whole world
06 MONSTER
(2:21)Time it makes you old, experience makes you wise
But only a fool who judges life by what he sees in other people's eyes
The decisions that you cast affect the outcome of your game
And the only person who's gonna think about you
Is the one that's standing in your shoes
Live by the sword and die by the sword
I'm a weapon of my set
The only family that I've ever known
Is the gun that's by my side
Little big man
He's not alone now
He's all grown up
His story's written all along these city walls
Found unity, he's gained a brotherhood
As they gather to beat you down
The fists reign hard, the fighting never stops
There's no mercy in this town
And I don't know when it's gonna end for me
This side of town is all I know, it's all I see
If I go on like this I'm gonna' end it all myself one day
It's my destiny, it's reality, it's society
I wear my colors proud but don't stare me down
I've got a million scars to prove my pain
You think you know who I am
Try walking a mile in my shoes
Quick on the draw but never walk alone
And know your enemy will never be afraid
It's what they always say
Till they come around for you
Ghetto birds that light the evening sky
As the sun begins to fall
Another night in this jungle spent
With his back up against the wall
Little big man
He's not alone now
He's all grown up
His story's written all along these city walls
Quick on the draw but never walk alone
And know your enemy will never be afraid
It's what they always say
Till they come around for you
07 BRING OUT YOUR DEAD
(2:51)One brief recollection of all the people in my life that have come and gone
One brief fleeting moment of people I've loved
And people that I have wronged
Long lost are loved ones gone
But this bird cannot seem to mend it's broken wings
So the lust for life dissipates
And a new greed rises for the needful things
I don't wanna think about it, I indulge myself
Distraction eases pain
Bury my emotions to protect myself
Till I can't feel a fucking thing
I've dared to dream and I've tried to live
But I've played it safe instead
I'm just a slave to my vices now
Bring out your dead
Voices wither and crack then die
Ringin in my ear would sing me soft asleep
Deathly silence now is all I hear
Has inspiration finally eluded me
Don't wanna think about it, I indulge myself
Distraction eases pain
Bury my emotions to protect myself
Till I can't feel a fucking thing
I've dared to dream and I've tried to live
But I've played it safe instead
I'm just a slave to my vices now
My addiction, my illness, my only trusted friend
My addiction, my illness, my only childhood friend
Your twisted warm embrace engulfing all I tried to be
My body's breaking under arms that will not set me free
Bring out your dead bring out your dead bring out your dead
My addiction, my illness, my only childhood friend
Bring out your dead bring out your dead bring out your dead
My addiction, my illness, my only trusted friend
Bring out your dead bring out your dead bring out your dead
Your twisted warm embrace engulfing all I could not be
Bring out your dead bring out your dead bring out your dead
My heart is breaking under arms that will not set me free
Locked in this cage that I've built myself
Constructed out of twisted cold reminders of a life once lost
But I've found my way again
Here among the wreckage and the vampires
I'll play it safe again, I'm just a slave to my vices now
My addiction, my illness, my only childhood friend
My addiction my illness
08 ROTTIN' APPLE
(2:28)Hey tired man I see you walk alone
The wrinkles on you face, a map of all your pain
Your expression becomes an open book of time
Filled with pages of forgotten hopes
Good intentions, regret, and disillusion with life
Animosity, unbridled purity
All these things that I swear I see
And your eyes tell me all you could never be
So many times I've stared into the eyes
Of the young, the old, the lonely and the wise
Just to find a glimpse of all I have not seen
Just to find some peace for my jaded mind
Don't wanna live my life by the second hand
Of a clock that's long since passed me by
You say, I've got to stay in line
We'll your line is going nowhere and so are you
Choices, decisions made, smoking away the pain inside
Sit back and watch it all go by
We could never find the peace of mind we need
We hid it all away for another day
Sit back everything's gonna be alright
Rivers of pain that map your aging skin
Your expression a journal of where you've been
All your dreams and your chances lost
You walk along that dotted line
Do you remember a time when you used to dream
Do you remember a time when you used to live
All your dreams and chances they're all gone
So you gave it all away unable to say all you wanna say
Look at you now, turned out to be a face of misery
Look at you now a rottin apple's all I see
09 RADIO SUICIDE
(2:13)Two silhouettes stand tall against a gray November sky
Utopian suburban teenage wasteland blues
You turn to me and sigh, the boredom growing in your eyes
As a voice sings songs of splendor from the radio
I hear that voice again emerging from the stereo
Invisible electric life flows right through me
Then for a moment I forget about what's going on and
The world falling around loses it's urgency
It's just another transmission from a place we all want to be
It takes control and then its spits me back into reality
I hear the music, and then I close my eyes
It's just another radio suicide on the airwaves
I turned it on, invisible electric life
And then my song came on the radio
The signal takes control, heartbeat starts to slow
You hear the words reverberating in your mind
Twisted electric waves pulse from the stereo
As a voice screams out loud everything is not alright
Not alright
Forget about the static pulsing in your ear
Not alright
Forget everything you see and hear
Not alright
It's just another radio suicide
10 SOMNOMBULANCE
(2:23)I lie awake again, no sleep tonight
I find no peace in the quiet absence of the light
Whispered thoughts floating through my head
Sayin goodbye to me as I'm in my bed
One two three, now it's four in the morning
As the emptiness swallows me one more time
I grow a little older with every second that passes
I die a little every time I close my eyes
There's no sanctuary in my dreams, no quiet place to hide
Every night I swear it's the same
And I don't know where I'll be tonight
But I know that sleep will come if I walk all night
It's been a thousand hours, maybe even more
Since I fell victim to all the thoughts I tried to ignore
Nameless faces and sounds, voices screaming in pain
Huddled shadows and sirens, voices calling my name
Well I can't sleep, but I'm not awake
To this hazy dim version of reality
Hypnotized by everything I can't control
Desensitized by everything that controls me
No sanctuary in my dreams, no quiet place to hide
Well I can't sleep so it's here in the dark
I'll make my peace with all that I've learned
Sanity's just another dream away
Maybe with time it'll be alright
Every night I swear it's the same
I walk all night and never ever get anywhere
It's taken all my strength, it's taken all the life
That used to flow deep inside of me
All my dreams are filled with no peace
All of my days are filled with no rest
Maybe with time it'll be alright
11 SIX FEET
(1:45)A family man is in the midst of a total breakdown
Seeks refuge, inebriated state
As he thinks to himself how did life pass me by
Somewhere down the line I forgot to live
Now every day is just another chore
Another day, another week, another year
The world slowly turns, but this rut never ends
One blink of an eye then it's gone
So he puts his faith in the almighty lord up above
He's told for all good men heaven awaits
Well I can't wait any longer
When's it my turn to see the light
That'll come and take my troubles away
Now he spends his days preaching what he does not believe
To a world that's forgotten how to live
And he can't understand the empty feeling inside
That seems to grow every hour, every day
What's it take to be a man
When everything I'm taught I can't believe
And everything is thrown right in my face
I wake up everyday
I live here amongst the dead and I am one of them
Is this how it's gotta be, for you and me
Open your eyes take a look around
Think nice thoughts then it's off to work I go
Now it's back to the hustle and it's back to the beat
It's back to another forty hour week
Soon that weekend will come, I'll get to have a little fun
Then it's back to my forty hour grave
Now every day is just another chore
Another day, another week, another year
The world slowly turns, but this rut never ends
One blink of an eye then it's gone
12 SPEED BALL
(2:02)No miracles gonna save you now
No profound word's gonna show you how
No revelation's gonna change the way you live
No wise man's gonna come and take your hand
No awakening lies in store for you
No effort you submit will deliver you
No picture worth a million word's
No salvation worth a million lives
Will you ever open your eyes so that you could really see
You've come this far doin what you do
So why change now, you're doin fine
I'll candy coat another rhyme for you
You're on a speed ball and it's goin straight to hell
And I don't wanna get in your way
You're on a rocket that's goin straight down
You lit the fuse and set the fire
There's no one left to save you
Someone took the chair right under you
Now you're swingin by the neck
And still you continue to smile
Step right up and get your fix
Climb back to your crucifix
We're burning the world down tonight
No new improved better lookin god
No antiestablishmentariant
Punk rock song will save the world tonight
We're on a speed ball goin to hell
A one way trip to Candy Land
And you aint got no reason to fight
You don't have the answers
You don't have the solutions
Somehow it always ends up working out
13 WRONG SIDE OF THE TRACKS
(2:40)Tell me what you want from me
Cause I don't know exactly what you want me to be now
There's no place here left for me to go now
So why don't you come kick me around for awhile
Down here you won't see me crying
Aint got no time for that
I've planned a million ways to sacrifice myself now
Seems every time I try to gain a little ground
I wind up right back where I never thought I'd be at
Down here it feels alright
Plenty of time
To find another way
Self destruction's the only way I know how to
Maybe another time, maybe another day
I'll be strong enough to leave this place behind me
Like a clown I'll raise my glass to the sky
And toast another night serenading my reflection
Down here it feels alright
Plenty of time
To find another way to seize the day
Without this bottle of redemption
So tonight I'll stumble my way home
Maybe tomorrow I'll find myself a job
But tonight I got the moon and the stars
I got a song in my head and a pocket full of nothin
Well I got no plans, got no peace of mind
I gotta find a way outta here
Took a little more than I gave away
It's up to me to get up and try to get it right