Last Update: 11/1/2020 0018
2. Prison Sex (4:56)
3. Sober (5:06)
4. Bottom (7:14)
5. Crawl Away (5:30)
6. Swamp Song (5:31)
7. Undertow (5:22)
8. 4 Degrees (6:03)
9. Flood (7:46)
69. Disgustipated (15:47)
01 INTOLERANCE
(4:53)I don't want to be hostile
I don't want to be dismal
And I don't want to rot in
An apathetic existence
See I want to believe you
And I wanted to trust you
And I want to have faith to
Put away the dagger
But you lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat and steal
You lie, cheat and steal
And I tolerate you
You lie, cheat and steal
You lie, cheat and steal
You lie, cheat and steal
But I tolerate
Veil of virtue hung to hide your method
While I smile and laugh and dance
And sing your praise and glory
Shroud of virtue hung to mask your stigma
As I smile and laugh and dance
And sing your glory while you
Lie, cheat, and steal
Lie, cheat, and steal
Lie, cheat, and steal
How can I tolerate you
You lie, cheat, and steal
Lie, cheat, and steal
Lie, cheat, and steal
How can I tolerate
Our guilt, our blame
I've been far too sympathetic
Our blood, our fault
I've been far too sympathetic
I am not innocent
I am not innocent
You are not innocent
No one is innocent
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
You lie, cheat, and steal
How can I tolerate
How could I tolerate
I won't go down inside of you
I must go down inside of you
No one is innocent
02 PRISON SEX
(4:56)It took so long to remember just what happened
I was so young and vestal then
You know it hurt me
But I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive
Even if signs seem to tell me otherwise
I've got my hands bound
And my head down
And my eyes closed
My throat's wide open
Do unto others what has been done to me
Do unto others what has been done to you
I'm treading water
I need to sleep a while
My lamb and martyr, you look so precious
Won't you, you come on, a bit closer
Close enough so I can smell you
I need you to feel this
I can't stand to burn too long
Released in sodomy
For one sweet moment I am whole
Do unto you now what has been done to me
Do unto you now what has been done
You're breathing so I guess you're still alive
Even if signs seem to tell me otherwise
Won't you, won't you come on a bit closer
Close enough so I can smell you
I need you to feel this
I need this to make me whole
Release in sodomy
I'm your witness and
Blood and flesh can't be trusted and
I'm your witness and
Blood and flesh can't be trusted and
Only this one holy medium brings me piece of mind
Got your hands bound
And your head down
And your eyes closed
You look so precious now
I have found some kind of temporary sanity in this
Shit blood and cum on my hands
I've come round full circle
My lamb and martyr
This will be over soon
You look so precious
You look so precious
You look so precious
You look so precious
You look so precious now
You look so precious
03 SOBER
(5:06)There's a shadow just behind me
Shrouding every step I take
Making every promise empty
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now the path called must we
Just before the son has come
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
Something but the past and done
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
Something but the past and done
Why can't we not be sober
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever
I just want to start this over
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but what's past and done
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but what's past and done
Why can't we not be sober
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever
I just want to start this over
I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
Trust me, trust me, trust me
Trust me, trust me
Why can't we not be sober
I just want to start things over
Why can't we sleep forever
I just want to start this over
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
04 BOTTOM
(7:14)My compassion is broken now
My will is eroded now
My desire is broke now
It makes me feel ugly
I'm on my knees and burning
My piss and moans are the fuel that
I set my head on fire
Smell my soul it's burning
I'm broken, looking up to see the enemy
And I have swallowed the poison you feed me
But I survive on the poison you feed me
And it leaves me guilt fed
Hatred fed
Weakness fed
It makes me feel ugly
On my knees and burning
My piss and moans are the fuel that
I set my head on fire
Burning soul
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up at the bottom
If I let you
You would make me destroy myself
In order to survive you
I must first survive myself
And I can sink no further
And I cannot forgive you
There's no choice but to confront you
To engage you, to erase you
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain
I have used my mistakes against you
There's no other choice
Shameless now, nameless now
I'm nothing now, I'm no one now
But my must soul must be iron
Cause my fear is naked
I'm naked and fearless
And my fear is naked
Dead inside, dead inside
Dead inside, dead inside
Nameless now, shameless now
Nothing now, no one now
I'm shameless, I'm shameless
I'm shameless, I'm shameless
You see me naked now
Fearless now, naked now, fearless now
Shit adds up, shit adds up
Shit adds up, it leaves me
Dead inside, dead inside
Dead inside, dead inside
Hatred keeps me alive
Happiness keeps me alive
Weakness keeps me alive
Guilt keeps me alive at the bottom
05 CRAWL AWAY
(5:30)Crawling away from me
Slipped away from me
I tried to keep a hold
But there was nothing I could say
You slid away from me and
Crept away from me
I tried to keep you down
But there was nothing I could say
So what you're trying to say
Is you don't wanna play
But what you want and what you need
Don't mean that much to me
I can see your back is turning
If I could I'd stick a knife in
Crawl away from me
Slip away from me
Tried to keep a hold
But there was nothing I could say
Slid away from me
Drift away from me
Tried to keep you down
But there was nothing I could say
So what you're trying to say
Is you don't wanna play
But what you want and what you need
Don't mean that much to me
I can see your back is turning
If I could I'd stick a knife in
This is love
This is my love for you
This is my love for you
This is my love for you
This is my love for you
This is my love
Say you won't go
Get you a strangle on me
Get in, get in, get in line
What you're trying to say
Is you don't want play
Well what you want and what you need
Don't mean no fuck to me
I can see your back is turning
If I could I'd stick a knife in
06 SWAMP SONG
(5:31)My warning meant nothing
You're dancing in quicksand
Why don't you watch where you're wandering
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling
You're wading knee deep and going in
You're wading knee deep and going in
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a stupid, beligerant fucker
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a dumb ass beligerant fucker
I hope it sucks you down
Down, down, down
My warning meant nothing
You're dancing in quicksand
Why don't you watch where you're wandering
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling
You're wading knee deep and going in
And you may never come back again
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a stupid, beligerant fucker
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a dumb ass beligerant fucker
I hope it sucks you down
My warning meant nothing
You're dancing in quicksand
Why don't you watch where you're wandering
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling
You're wading knee deep and going in
And you may never come back again
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a stupid, beligerant fucker
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a dumb ass beligerant fucker
I hope it sucks, I hope it sucks
I hope it sucks you, fucker
I hope it sucks, I hope it sucks
I hope it sucks you down
Wander in and wandering
No one even invited you in
You still stumble and suffocate, suffocate
Why don't you get away
Wandering around, who let you in
No one even invited you in
You still stumble in, and suffocate
Suffocate, why don't you get out
While you can
No one told you to come
My warning meant nothing
You're dancing in quicksand
Why don't you watch where you're wandering
Why don't you watch where you're stumbling
You're wading knee deep and going in
And you may never come back again
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a stupid, beligerant fucker
This bog is thick and easy to get lost in
Cause you're a dumb ass beligerant fucker
I hope it sucks, I hope it sucks
I hope it sucks you, fucker
I hope it sucks, I hope it sucks
I hope it sucks you
07 UNDERTOW
(5:22)Two times I've
I've been struck dumb
By a voice that speaks from deep
Beneath the endless water
It's twice as clear as heaven
And twice as loud as reason
It's deep and rich like silt on a riverbed
And just as never ending
The current's mouth below me opens up around me
Suggests and beckons all while swallowing
It surrounds and drowns and wipes me away
But I'm so comfortable
Too comfortable
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
You're saturating me
How could I let this bring me back to my knees
Third time and
I've been baptized by your voice
It screams from deep beneath the cold black water
It's half as high as heaven
Half as clear as reason
It's cold and and black like silt on the riverbed
And just as never ending
The current's mouth below me opens up around me
Suggests and beckons all while swallowing
It surrounds and drowns and wipes me away
Oh I'm so comfortable
So comfortable
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up
You're saturating me
How could I let this happen
Why don't you kill me
I am weak and numb and insignificant
How could I let this bring me back to my knees
Lost in euphoria
Lost in euphoria
Lost in euphoria
Lost in euphoria
I'm back down
I'm in the undertow
I'm helpless and I'm awake
I'm in the undertow
I'll die beneath the undertow
There doesn't seem no other way
I'm out of the undertow
Euphoria
08 4 DEGREES
(6:03)Get up, get up
Get up, get up now
Get up, get up now
Get up, get up now
Get up and
Free yourself from yourself
Free yourself from yourself
Locked up inside you
Like the calm beneath castles
Is a cavern of treasures that
No one has been to
Let's go digging
Let's go digging
Bring it out and take it back in
You won't do what you'd love to do
Lay back and let me show you another way
I'll kill what you want me to
Take what's left and eat it
Take all or nothing
Life's just too short to push it away
Take it all
Take it all in
All the way in
All the way in
Let it go in
Let it go in
You won't feel what you'd love to feel
Lay back and let me show you another way
I'll kill what you want me to
Take what's left and eat it
Take all or nothing
Life's just too short to push it away
Knock me down I'll just come back running
Knock you down it won't be long now
All the way in
All the way in
All the way
All the way in
The way in
I'll kill what you want me to
Take what's left and eat it
Take all or nothing
Life's just too short to push it away
Take it up
Take it up higher
Four degrees now
Four degrees warmer
Give in now, give in now
Let me in
Now
You'll like this
This brings us out
You'll like this
It brings us closer than dying
And cancer and crying
I'll kill what you want me to
Take what's left and eat it
Take all or nothing
Life's just too short for misery
Just like that
Just like that
Just like
09 FLOOD
(7:46)Here comes the water
All I knew, all I believed
Crumbling images
That no longer comfort me
I scramble to reach higher ground
Order and sanity
Something to comfort me
So I take what is mine, hold what is mine
Suffocate what is mine, bury what is mine
Soon the water will come and claim what is mine
I must leave it behind and climb to a new place now
This ground is not the rock I thought it to be
Thought I was high
Thought I was free
Thought I was there
Divine destiny
I was wrong
This changes everything
Running away, running away
I'm running away, running away now
Running away, running away
I'm running away, running away
I take what is mine, hold what is mine
Suffocate what is mine, bury what's mine
Soon the water will come and claim what is mine
I must leave it behind and climb to a new place
Water's rising up on me so
Water's rising up on me
Thought the sun would come deliver me
But the truth has come to punish me instead
The ground is breaking down right under me
Cleanse and purge me in the water
69 DISGUSTIPATED
(15:47)And the angel of the lord came unto me
Snatching me up from my place of slumber
And took me on high, and higher still
Until we moved to the spaces betwixt the air itself
And he brought me into a vast farmlands of our own midwest
And as we descended, cries of impending doom rose from the soil
One thousand, nay a million voices, full of fear
And terror possesed me then
And I begged, Angel of the Lord, what are these tortured screams
And the angel said unto me, these are the cries of the carrots, the cries of the carrots
You see, Reverend Maynard, tomorrow is harvest day and to them it is the holocaust
And I sprang from my slumber drenched in sweat
Like the tears of one million terrified brothers
And roared, hear me now, I have seen the light, they have a consciousness
They have a life, they have a soul, damn you
Let the rabbits wear glasses, save our brothers
Can I get an amen, can I get a hallelujah, thank you Jesus
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on
This is necessary, this is necessary
Life feeds on life, feeds on life, feeds on life
It was daylight when you woke up in your ditch
You looked up at your sky
Then that made blue be your color
You had your knife there with you too
When you stood up there was goo all over your clothes
Your hands were sticky
You wiped them on your grass, so now your color was green
Oh Lord, why did everything always have to keep changing like this
You were already getting nervous again
Your head hurt and it rang when you stood up
Your head was almost empty
It always hurt you when you woke up like this
You crawled up out of your ditch onto your gravel road and began to walk
Waiting for the rest of your mind to come back to you
You can see the car parked far down the road and you walked towards it
If God is our father you thought
Then Satan must be our cousin
Why didn't anyone else understand these important things
You got to your car and tried all the doors
They were locked
It was a red car and it was new
There was an expensive leather camera case laying on the seat
Out across your field, you could see two tiny people walking by your woods
You began to walk towards them
Now red was your color
And, of course, those little people out there were yours too